A Feeling, which Cannot Be Found Anywhere Else
One should not only know God. One should drink, taste and feel God. One should use God. One should enjoy Him!
The feeling of a tremble in the hearts of a young man and a woman, who are just getting to know and love each other, creates a beautiful trembling in a person. God has given this feeling to human beings for them to experience it and be able to imagine the feeling of meeting God when worshiping Him. But, if this feeling of a young man and woman, two people from the opposite sexes, getting to know each other, is emotional, pure and loving, it will happen one or two times. More than that, it will end up being debauchery, becoming repetitive or be animosity.
But, that other feeling is always fresh. The feeling of worshiping is the most beautiful and exciting feeling that a man or a woman can experience. If you obey the commands of God for a while, the feeling of worshiping will awaken within you. Instead of saying, “I love you. You are my love,” over time, higher words will be born within you. And, this is the peak of flourishing! Similarly, this sentence, “I worship you,” is something higher than loving.
A child needs the embrace of his or her mother. When a child who is fond of his mother is separated from her, he cries in alarm. The child can’t say, “Mother I love you.” It is something higher than loving. There is no opportunity to say, “I love you.” “Mother I...” Done.
The supplications are all like this. If children want to talk to their parents, they can only say one sentence. They say, “Mom, don’t pout with me.” The supplications are full of these same sentences saying, “God don’t be angry. God don’t punish me with Your punishment.” You won’t reach to the feeling of worshiping Him until you say yes to Him and obey His commands. Do we have something higher than the feeling of worshiping? Yes.
In a meeting, I found the courage to talk about this second feeling. The people who were recording my talks during the 30 nights of the month of Ramadan would say the next day, “Sir. We weren’t able to show your speech last night. If you could not use some of these words, we will be able to show it.” I used to say, “This is my subject! What should I do?!” This is the feeling of being owned, being an “Abd,” and being a servant. And the exact meaning, which all the friends from the media told me not to say, is “being a slave.” “God, I want to be Your slave.” “Abd” means slave! “Abd” means being owned!
The Prophet of God (s) is an Abd. He has an owner. He is for God! He is not allowed to talk about tomorrow unless he says, “InShaAllah (If God wants). If my owner wants.” Being an Abd means you are for Him! He determines when your life finishes. And no one can question Him.
Abd means being owned. He knows what He has or hasn’t given you. Does being an Abd mean I am satisfied with God? I have no right to be satisfied or unsatisfied with God! Who am I to be satisfied, or not? I am His! There is a feeling in a person, like a child who wants to be for his or her parents, that makes a person belong to a Master.
The other side of being an Abd (slave), is being a superpower. God says, “Obey Me so that you can be like Me.” You become like God! You become like God! You become like God! You will be able to say, “Be,” and it is. Everything will be turned upside down with your satisfaction! When you frown or become angered, the universe will be destroyed. You will become like God! “In the seat of honour with a most Powerful King.” (Qur’an 54:55) God says, “With Me! Before Me! You will sit on the seat that I am sitting on!” This is the meaning of Abd (slave).
Who doesn’t like to be an Abd? A person who doesn’t like to become a superpower like God! A person who is satisfied with a little power and carnal enjoyments! A person who doesn’t want to have domination over the universe! Such a person doesn’t need to become an Abd. He is satisfied to be like an animal. The feeling of worshiping means that I c